everythings seems perfect

Everything seems perfect.. but right now my head is like a bomb still waiting. Its getting to breath in here..I may got what i wanted, and i dont complaint.. perhaps watching that the grass is more greener on the other side made me think that i simply dont got what i need??
Im tired.. i cant sleep. got homework, i´ve got a pain in my chest or just all the madness inside of me pushing my heart out of the mediastine!!
YES im angryy , due to my own decisions actions and words.. But nobody knows.. coz on the surface everything seemed perfect.