Sindrome del estudiante de medicina

El sindrome del estudiante de medicina a.k.a: hipocondriaco a su maxima potencia
consiste en lo siguiente:
Por cada enfermedad mencionada en clase, a un@ le entran ideas en la cabeza... uno comienza a preguntarse si alguna vez ha presentado esos sintomas y signos, si ha estado en contacto con alguien con la enfermedad o si ha comido algo raro ultimamente etc...

La cabeza llena de remordimientos

Debi haber comido mejor

debi haber ido al médico

debi debi debi..

O pero aun.. tengo que hacerme analisis,

tengo que chequear todo

una xray

Una TAC

Tengo que saca tiempo pa chequearme. Cambiar los lentes, ir a determinado especialista etc...

Voy hacer ejercicios, voy comer mas saludable, voy a beber mas agua, cero comida chatarra.

Osea.. uno termina en loco.

y que es esto.

Tengo compañeros que por casa rotacion, bueno yo tambien , hemos hecho consultas

a cada dr encargado. Bueno si es nice pq si medio loco u ogro. no

Hay que aprovecha´

Consultas gratis..

y sinperder clases o tiempo.

Insisto.. nuestra vida se torna sicorigida y paranoica por todo eso..

And that my friends is when you are

oficially suffering from

medical student disease!!

Corruption

I can see it in your eyes.

The tone of your voice says it clearly

Every step

every move

Just to hunt your prey.

The solemn idea of corrupting what is pure.

The sole fact of breaking what´s inmaculate

I can see it.

Devouring every inch of flesh

With each poisonous bite

making what was so perfect

another rotten fruit.

All your actions made you what you are now.

It is society that corrupts the man.

it shapes him with it ferocious will

Is that or become an outcast.

The corruption of the best , is the worst.

1st day@ uni-hospital 2006.

To be honest...Yo no queria volver a coger pela en hospitales... Todavia me quedaba mucho para hacer en estas vacaciones jijij

Anyways, ya no se podia estar vagando tanto en mi casa, asy que estoy de vuelta a al uni y a mi nuevo ciclo de rotacion donde aparentemente somos 19 personas ( se supone que el maximo por grupo de rotacion son 10 , but they dont care do they??...).

Esa fue la noticia del dia de hoy, luego cuando por fin encontramos a nuestro prof.( si dos horas despues casi.. ) Como estamos en el Instituto Dermatologico( al lado del morgan) Consultorios pequeños + mucha gente= dividir el grupo en subgrupos. Perfect no problem,lo malo es que tengo tan buena suerte que me mandaron a mi y mis otros dos compañeros al otro edificio donde se tratan las ETS.. que divertido verdad.

Picture this: first day ever in this hospital

they split us, they send me to std department

and all of the sudden i have to hold a sick dick and examine it.

Call that for half losing the virginity....

Isnt life beautiful???

The worst part is actually being mocked about it later

There´s always a first time...

today it was.

I CANT take it anymore...

Im really pissed off...
What´s the use of having friends if you cant count on them? I cant count on anybody... Everybody else has their fucking lives . But all i got is their problems. Whenever anybody needs anything, then im good
But no one remembers me when they go out.. Nobody thinks of me Nobody calls me...
And i had it...

Whats the point in caring... if at the end thats all i lack.}
IM very pissed offf
It seems to me that in this country no single girls cant go out and have fun.We simply cant because of danger, violence etcx..
I cant go out simply because im single??? Doesnt my life sucks already.. All my single friends are women who either dont have a car.. or just dont like going out as much as i do.
So im doomed to die rotten in my bedroom... I wish a thunder just strike me. Make my death much quicker.
Dont you reckon?

If anybody want to take me out

of my insanity

it will be welcome.

This one goes untitled

Im glad we´ve talked.

Im happy with last night.It was so releasing.

My choice was the right one all along.

Leavin aside OUR story(,that we dont ,well i dont know when is gonna end).Keeping it as we have for the past period, no strings attached ( .. easy to say easy to say..),no agarre, JUST FRIENDS.

Im happier that way,

maybe that was all we meant to be

the beginning

But foremost i want you to be happy

i cant put up my life on hold

waiting for you.(You never asked me too.)

i WONT wait.

Thanks for being honest and straightforward

I realized now that i was free all this time

now i free you.

My ghost wont haunt you anymore, neither does yours.

Free at last . Both.

having fuck buddies.

Fuck buddies are just another reason for avoid compromise

Why not having a relationship with all that comes ?
Not able to be responsible, and stable. Whats wrong with all that?? too politically correct??. I know.

But is less hurt and more peaceful i assure you that.

What happens is that fuck buddies are the result of a decision made by the personality, the physical part of us, through fear of compromise. If you make decisions in order to learn and clean up karma, through fear you will only generate feelings of guilt, regret, sorrow and unhappyness. Your being guided by physical aspect, therefore you ´ll never reach a higher level of concience. (if you read the ¨seat of the soul¨by gary zukav. you´ll understand it ).

If you make wise decisions following the soul´s guidance, the results will be eliminating some karma, and learning. In this case, fuck buddies are the illusion of the need of love. Aunque ustedes consideren que no hay ningun sentimiento en lo absoluto en este convenio entre dos adultos.

Sin embargo pq most of people end up feeling somethin when they are not supposed too.??

Coz they believe in the illusion. perhaps??

Creating new karma... through insecurity

Then comes the doubt.

Do you really think is useful? Yes is satisfies the needs of the personality to be loved. But it just creates a greater emptyness. ANALIZE IT.

Either way is your lives not mine, im no judge of today´s youth or society.

I´ve chosen the way of the soul. Less harmfull, more fullfilling.

New year´s eve 05

Every new year´s eve , my uncle Jose gathers all of my family (all 20 or more members-) in a restaurant to expend it together. We have our stories...And i hated it.I know is sharing with the family , and i love my family, but there are some characters that just annoy me!!
So yes i was grumpy yesterday, for some reason i didnt want to go, i wasnt even hungry, all i wanted to do was crying. I was at the edge of tears, gracias a Dios que me aguante pq despues se paso..

(Y vino el sueño.-muy despues... )

Creo que ese estado de debió mucho a la noche anterior, Mau´s bday.. i got very pissed off... Como tres horas de pie en the red room y yo con tacones, llegue con maldito dolor que todavia dos dias despues los tengo
(otra razon por la cual hacer ejercicio)
Anyways.. A mi me gustaria mas cenar en mi casa cualquier cosa y despues salir a bonchar.. Pero como siempre hay que pasarla con toda la familia, pero sobre todo con mi abuela.. por ella es que yo aguante mi coraje y mi pique.
Al final como no sabia ninguna MOVIDA..
me fui pa mi casa y me acoste a dormir.(si a dormir en un 31!!!). hasta las 12 am de aujourd hui
De alguna bizarra forma la soporte y pase bien..
I still needed a very special hug from someone very dear to me.

im still waiting today for that hug...