Thoughts

Me acuesto y trato de dormir, tengo que levantarme temprano como siempre.
(Toy jarta de levantarme temprano...)

Me pongo a pensar.Thoughts wander a lot.
Hace dos dias tuve un ataque de ansiedad...Depresion vino despues, con todo lo del virginia Tech shooting, i was emotional. Yo queria recogerme a mi casa... No aki, Mi Casa. A llorar,that's how i felt.
No feelings of hopelessness, nor worthless. Era pura tristeza. Pense en todas las cosas que me pudieran poner triste ese dia.I didnt want any human contact. Running away to get under the covers. That was my feeling.( 2 days ago).

A day ago, i kept being sad. I had music and a book to read and to keep my mind from wondering.

Last night, i wasnt sad, instead was anxious. I started thinking.

Por que cuando me siento como hoy, pienso tanto en ti como en ese fantasma?

The ghost of love long gone, in pain and hurt. He was gone i bet,

More over he didnt existed anymmore.

I brought him to life again. I compared Us to him.

Then i found myself in deepest sorrow, due to my contradictory feelings.

Thinking about you didnt help much. Y justo en ese momento me rescatas hacia la realidad

You haveme now, and i have you ,why change that?

Soy ambiciosa incluso hasta para esto.

A part of my brain is looking for a resurrected Ghost.

Sin Embargo este, sigue siendo un vago fantasma, de algo que fue.

Si tan solo pudiera get the best of both worlds, or better yet be happy with what i got.

I feel like im settling for this. Like there's something better.

Then again this it is as good as it gets to me and to you.